For a pessimist i'm trying to be optimistic...

So I'm currently in my bed, feasting on a pack of fruit gums and finishing up the 7th season of Supernatural on my new TV. I didn't want said new TV but apparently because the lovely purple one I've had since I was 9's volume was no longer working, I had to have a new one. So despite my complaints and my love for my old one, my Mummy is ridiculously kind and to be honest, my new ones quite swell.

 

Out with the old :(

 

In with the new...

 

 

The past few weeks have been ok-ish, Uni's the same but my dissertations going really well and I'm extremely excited about the end result, should be very good! I mean come on, any performance where you get to do a 'When Harry Met Sally' type reading of '50 Shades of Grey' has got to be amusing right? Psychogeography's also going well, Will Self is a bit of a G quite frankly, I still can't believe were fortunate enough to have him as a lecturer. On Monday we went for a 3 hour walk around the local muddy fields, got absolutely coated in squelchy mud but Will treated us all to a pint after which was quite amazing. Next week were going to Heathrow and then walking all the way back, around the houses and all, will probably take ages but I'm excited, (look up Psychogeography if you have no idea why we flounce around muddy fields in our lecture time). So despite shitty grades and ending every week being physically and emotionally drained, everything else is ok :).

 

In other news, I saw Les Miserables last week, after a trip to Bella Italia for some couply dinner time we saw this beaut of a film and I probably cried for at least 95% of it, turned to face Brian to see he was doing the same...standard. So basically if you haven't go and watch it, its really is incredible if not emotionally crippling. I've also been spending every weekend in at Brian's, and I'm actually loving it, can't be asked to go out and drink, all I seem to want to do is spend my weekend nights in watching films, playing xbox games and eating. Getting old!

On Tuesday me and Brian babysat Phoebe whilst Dad & Martina went to the cinema, which was a very amusing evening as they all are when greebly Phoebes is involved. Last night after finishing Uni at half 7, I traipsed to Brian's where we attempted to tackle his wardrobe and clear out his clothes, 3 bin bags full later and we were done. Jesus that boy has more clothes than I do!

 

Screw the bikini body, I'll always look like a wee boy anyways...

 

 I'm still going Zumba, which I love and 'Thumbs Up' is still being attended of course, I actually went today for the first time since Christmas. I had a lot of fun, was told that I make the children happy which is great to hear seen as this is my future career after all. Truth is I love it, these two hour sessions a month honestly make me so incredibly happy, I love all the little ones an insane amount and really am looking forward to shaping a career out of something I enjoy so much. I'm still awaiting on photos from the Christmas party, watch this space :).

I've also just realised that I have yet to mention the fact that our group holiday is finally booked, yayyy! It was surprisingly easy and seen as we've booked it so early in January, we got it very cheap and I'm very excited. Gives me something to look forward to after Uni's over in a mere 4 months, well that and my 21st. If i'm honest all of these dates cannot come soon enough, I think i'm almost ready to be a big girl.

 

 

 

A load of poop and snow...

Just a clarification, my blog is being a gay once again and isn't letting me upload pictures so it's officially sucking toe right now...

I hate Uni.
Pretty much sums up these last two weeks I've been back, It's too hard and I honestly cannot say I'm  not enjoying it much at the moment. I go in everyday, work my butt off, go home, eat, do coursework, sleep and then start the same crap again. Even in the week when I tried to enjoy my evenings, like cupcake night on Wednesday, my mind was occupied with everything else and I had about 5 different people texting me about Uni crap...seriously bugger off!

The most annoying thing at the moment is currently the Drama department, I received my feedback for an essay the other week and apparently I got an F...A fucking F! Really? I'm sorry surely an F requires doing something completely irrelevant to what I was asked? Basically there's a twat lecturer, and everyone who got marked by him got D's and below, Another lecturer (the one who actually assigned the module) gave everyone fair grades like C's and B's, and then a third lecturer who is craazy, copy and pasted all of her feedback which meant everyone she marked got an A...she didn't even look at it! So all of her work got remarked due to the mishap but apparently those who were graded unfairly aren't allowed there's remarked. NOT HAPPY AT ALL BY THIS. I've read through my work countless times and very very fairly connected it to the requirements in the module handbook, and I get at least a C. Don't get me wrong, I had scarlet fever when I wrote that assignment, it was by no means a great piece of work but it was not an F. His feedback was horrendous and contradictory, nothing constructive at all about it, unless you consider 'This is pointless.' a constructive piece of criticism, I generally would have preferred for him to write 'This is a load of shit' on my work then all of his narky comments. Sarah's in the same position as me, he wrote on her work 'This doesn't make sense.', I'm sorry Sir but we are both English students, Sarah just got an A on her last piece of English work, if you don't understand her then surely that's your doing? She went to see Broderick the other day and he made her cry, he literally ripped the crap out of her work before confessing...and wait you'll love this... That he doesn't actually have a clue about the module...So please tell me why he was allowed to mark our work? It's a disgrace. This has been on my mind for two weeks straight, i've been crying my eyes out every time its mentioned because its really bad, I have enough on my plate without having to do their job for them as well, I am paying them after all.
So yeah this process is ongoing...

My Grandma's in hospital at the moment, she went in just after Christmas as well because she's got fluid in her legs and stomach and it's causing her a lot of discomfort. Don't get me wrong, my Grandmas awful, she smokes A LOT of cigarettes a day which definitely are not helping her health, but I suppose she just thinks there's no point stopping now because she's smoked since she was 11. So after the stint after Christmas she discharged herself because she hated it there (the women in our family are stubborn bitches). And she was taken back in an ambulance yesterday, not sure how long she'll be in there but its her birthday Tuesday so that's not going to be great for her. I am worried, because she can barely walk or breathe and although she still musters up the energy to swear at everyone, she's definitely not her usual self at the moment. So that's not been a brilliant start to the week as you can imagine. Crossing all my fingers and tootsies for dear Fanny. This is why you shouldn't smoke people! :P

It's been snowing...yayyy or maybe not yayyy? It's beautiful don't get me wrong I love it, but I drove in it for the first time on Friday and nearly cried, my car was skidding everywhere, I literally had no control and at one point had to yank my handbrake up mid driving to stop my car, as the brakes were shaking. Wonderful. So no more driving in the snow Jess, thank you.

In other news, Brian's birthday went really well. On Friday we went out with my lot, we went to nandos and then got rather drunk before stumbling back to his for a lot of 'close contact', booze and curly fries. My friends also spoilt him rotten which was just ridiculously kind of them. On Sunday, his actual birthday, I drove round his at 7am to decorate the house, he didn't actually wake up until 12 which was a bit of bummer but ahh well. Later on in the day after the present opening, i threw up 3 times without the aid of alcohol which was just brill. Then Brian felt unwell, so we decided to veg out on the sofa and play xbox games until we felt better. I still have no idea why we were both so unwell. In the evening I took Brian to the Cattle Grid, the steakhouse in Windsor where Dad took me for my birthday, which was ammazzinng, we ate a lot before driving to my Mums for home made cheesecake and more present opening. When we got back to Brian's we both felt unwell again, I decided against Uni the next day and we spent the night watching 'An Idiot Abroad' before crashing out until midday on Monday.

On a random note, I watched 'The Silver Linings PLaybook' on Friday and just want to tell you to watch it. It is amazing. Literally great and completely not what I expected when I saw the advert. I want Jennifer Lawrence in my bed.

I'm presuming the rest of the week, or shall I say the next few months, will involve pretty much the same thing. I'm trying to not get so down about everything, but its very hard when your basically being told your thick as shit when your not. I work my arse off at Uni and anyone who thinks that it's not a hard experience. Think again! To be honest i'd much rather be in a job, doing the same thing everyday and knowing what is required of me, then having to guess my way into a decent degree which I am paying for. I know at the end of these next few months I'll once again be very greatful for my University experience, because it has been that after all, and I've most definitely learnt a lot as well as meeting some amazing people. But right now I can't really see much greatness, just a lot of work thats never good enough. Hey Ho at least i'll have a stable job when I come out of it...Oh wait...

All at once

So the holidays are over, I had an amazing break, the best part was definitely having my chums home, seeing them whenever I wanted was a massive bonus. So of course a few nights out were had, many a catch up and a lot of planning for our group holiday this year which I am extremely excited about! Brians house is now just sheltering him, Joe and Andrew have moved out which means Brian will be looking for a place of his own soon. I'm excited for him, it feels all grown up and I get to be a part of it without actually having to fully grow up just yet :P. It did feel quite weird being there over the weekend just the two of us, we kind of merged the sofa and TV closer together and was up until 4am eating popcorn and watching films.




A Uni update:

I went back to Uni on Monday, I only had two weeks off which is odd, little time plus loads of essays to do hasn't been much fun, I am currently on my second Philosophy essay and am 1,400 words in out of 2,000. Me and philosophy don't mix well, the subject is amazing, really tough and makes you think a lot and I enjoy it, but writing it sucks, so I suppose you could say I am 1,400 of absolute shit in to it...it's due on Thursday, wondrous. I then have my online portfolio to complete by next week, it won't be such a gruelling task but the feedback from our last assignment was appalling and there seems to be a hell of a lot of the lecturers telling us one thing, we do it, then get downgraded for it. So I haven't been a happy bunny this week. All of these deadlines, plus lectures, rehearsals everyday and Brian's birthday coming up Sunday has proved to be quite stressful. My loan only came through Sunday night, so I literally ordered all of his presents in one go and now just have to pray they turn up in time... Every spare minute I have, i'm juggling between writing a few more words of Philosophy, doing some of my website and thinking about what to do for Brian's birthday. Gahhh please can this week be over soon?

I started my Psychogeography course yesterday, so technically in third year I am taking 3 kind of Philosophy based modules, never thought i'd be doing that if i'm honest! Psychogeography has never been done before, its a new thing at Brunel, there's about 10 of us in the class and were being taught by the amazing Will Self. Nobody (as I didn't before he gave me a lecture last term) seems to know too much about this guy, but he's quite famous as a novelist and has been on loads of quiz shows like QI etc. But the bottom line is he's quite amazing. His lectures are just incredible, he's one of those people who seems to know everything, has many stories, has been everywhere and it's generally a joy to listen to. So i'm really excited to see what the course brings over the next 10 weeks!

My dissertation performance is proving just as stressful as the rest of the year has been, one of the girls in our group has just had a baby, we new this might cause a few problems at the beginning but its actually just now become 10x worse. Being a Drama student pretty much means you have to be available all the time, you have to be in Uni rehearsing for hours on end to get a good end result and trust me, I want a good end result! Drama is like my safety net, i'm good at it and with my essay skills suffering I need to pull through with a good dissertation grade in May. So basically she can't make it in half the time, I understand she has a baby, but thats not the groups problem, it seems to be getting more and more ridiculous when it comes to the rehearsals she can come in for. This term I have lectures Monday and Tuesday and thats it, but rehearsals are at least 3 hours each on Wednesdays, Thursday and Fridays and thats only the minimum of what we should be doing. She better pull it together soon, otherwise things might not go down so well...

Phewww massive Uni talk over for a while...I'm off to continue Sons of Anarchy season 5 and pretend to myself that its contributing to my essay.

Jingling it all the way...

A brief summary of these last few weeks...

*Thumbs up party was attended, it went very well and the kids loved it even though over half couldn't attend due to illness, more pictures will be uploaded but I'm waiting for Lisa to send me them.

 

* Dissertation showcase was performed, we got some really good feedback so were hoping to continue doing well after the holidays. In other Uni news I got a C+/B on my first Philosophy essay, I'm not incredibly happy with this result, it's good, but it's no A and third year is all about the very steady B's and A's. But for my first Philosophy essay which I wrote with scarlet fever and under extreme stress, I think I did ok.

* Christmas dayy! Got spoilt absolutely rotten with bags, clothes, amazing high heels, boots, dvd's, undies, pjs, smellies, jewellery. Literally got disgustingly spoilt but I am oh so grateful for everything. Brian made me the most incredible gift ever, he spent 3 days straight designing and creating a Spongebob themed storybook/card for me, in which he placed my head in the illustrations. It's just incredible, that's the only way I can sum it up, the best gift I have ever been given, that boy is a beaut. He came round for Christmas and boxing day, we had a wonderful few days with my lot, apart from my car breaking down on Christmas morning, not sure whats wrong with it, the MOT was only last month, thought It was going to explode as I was driving home...not good. Otherwise an AMAZING CHRISTMAS!

 

 

* Hopefully will be spending New Years at Brian's this year with everyone, it makes sense really, he has the free space, we can get drunk, bop about, eat shit loads and have loads of merriment :). It will definitely be the cheapest option too, not 100% sure on what everyone's thoughts are on it but either way New Year's will be a good' un :D.

* That's about it for now, attending a surprise outing with Dad and co tomorrow evening, not sure what that will involve but it should be lovely. Looking forward to getting back into a bit of a routine over the next few days, I have a lot of work due in for January so i'll have to get cracking soon, then Brian's 26th birthday on the 13th!

It was indeed short, but i'm sleepy, over stuffed and admiring all of my beautiful things so I shall update in more detail soon...<3 font="font">

Is it the holidays yet?

Firstly just FYI, as stated in my last post the pictures on my blog are messed up, I need to check my picassa as it won't even let me upload any but that's not really a problem, just enjoy the words people :P...

I obviously got over my illness from the week before last, it was tough but I managed to also get all of my coursework that was due in a few days later, done and in on time. I owe Brian a massive sum of thank you's, for his patience and ability to help me understand all of my work, he literally sat with me two nights in a row just going over and over everything with me to get it into my head. I haven't got my grades back yet but heck, I don't even care, I got it in on time and that's more than most people would have done.

Last week was a busy one at Uni, just as this one will be, I have a 5 minute snippet of my dissertation performance being shown this Friday so my group and I are currently working our butts off to make it exciting to show the rest of the Drama students. On Tuesday I saw my lovely Hannah for what was the first time in about 3 weeks? So of course I'd missed her terribly. We had a catch up and went to see the new Twilight which I think we were both equally dissapointed in, the first half was immense so I was shocked at how badly put together the second half was, but ahh well. Farewell Edward and Bella, I'm sure i'll read the books again someday...
On Friday me, Becky, Katie and Emma had our yearly Christmas sleepover which was great as its the only time we ever see eachother all together. We ate pizza and watched some films and had a chin wag over recent quite bad events, which are hopefully, fingers crossed with jelly and jam on top over now. On Saturday I saw Brian, we watched x factor and hallelujah James beautiful Arthur won (Mega yaayyy). On Sunday I came home early to put up the Christmas decorations with Mum and Becky, they look beautiful as usual and our house always feels nice and cosy with them all up. Elf was watched, tea was drank, a lot of pondering was done before we sat back and enjoyed our little cottage all done up :).

I've nearly finished all of my Christmas shopping which i'm really pleased about, I literally have no money this year so i'm happy all the presents are out of the way so that whatevers left I know i can save and keep for petrol etc etc. Me and Brian have a £10 limit this year, seen as i'm poor and he's moving house next month so he's saving so it's been tough but seen as i'm an amazing ebay surfer (even if I do have to say so myself :P) I managed to get him some really great gifts and I know he'll love them. Last year was our first xmas together so we spent loads and i'm sure we'll do that again in the future, but for this year it was nice to have a little challenge and seen as Brians birthday falls literally 2 weeks after, I get to spoilt him rotten then.

Because i'm a tit...

I'm such a massive boob that I chose to delete pictures from my blog to free up space, whilst being held up in bed with flu. I accidently deleted the whole heaping hunk of snaps from my blog :/ but alas no loss really, just a lot of silly black pictures with a minus sign through them.

Just incase anyone was wondering :).

Scarlet fever

A long old post...

So this week so far hasn't been great, on Monday night at Zumba I felt hideously dizzy and literally had to close my eyes until the class was over, I could not focus. I presumed this was due to the disgusting hangover I got on Sunday morning but alas no...
By the evening I was shaking uncontrollably, I had chills like I've never had them before and my bones were throbbing, particularly my back and legs were agony. I then developed extremely swollen glands, and within 20 minutes of dealing with the chills, I had to take all my clothes off due to severe sweats :/. I've been like this for almost two days now, shaking one minute, sweating the next, its horrendous. What I presumed was flu turns out to be scarlet fever as I have rashes on my skin and a strawberry, skin like coating on my tongue (Yes i know yum!), wonderful, why is it always me? I had swine flu for two, agonising weeks at the beginning of last year and several other illnesses throughout the year. I also have two deadlines next Tuesday, 3,000 words to write in total, a marketing plan to create and a flyer to design, all of which are just not going to happen right now, I cannot focus on anything properly and am hoping I feel better soon so I can get through them, trust it to happen in my third and most important year.
Brian came over last night to see me, I couldn't stop crying because I felt so awful, I've been given build up shakes to drink because I cannot eat and I basically drop weight like a child when I'm unwell. Fingers crossed for this shite to be over soon. Going to miss the one Thursday every month where I get to see the lovely babies at Colham Manor which actually breaks my heart, as I look forward to it so much but I cannot risk spreading it. Been texting Lisa (The runner of the group, and Louie who is the most gorgeous baby ever's Mum) about it and she said they'll miss me which was lovely of her, I'm glad I'm making an impact somewhere.

On Saturday I went out with my lovely friend Chloe, I had a good time but really wasn't in the mood for alcohol at all. In fact I cannot describe how much I am going off it and after the disgraceful hangover I suffered on Sunday after drinking only about 4 drinks and a couple of shots, I'm in all seriousness thinking of going teetotal. At the moment I'm not at the greatest weight ever, I must have thrown up about 12 times on Sunday, I was shaking and pale and felt so terribly weak...What must this be doing to my little bod? I've been thinking about this for a while anyway and I think its time, for a while at least to give the alcohol a rest, its not like I'll be missing out it all tastes like shit anyway.

Depressive blog part over...

During last week I spent most of my time between Uni and looking after Brian, taking him to the Osteopaths etc, he is feeling much better now though so I'm really pleased for the little spack. I also sent of my 'Love in a Box' box which I am very pleased about, definitely going to do it every year because its the loveliest idea ever. On Friday me, mum, Becky and Brian all went to Wycombe for a Primark shopping trip, after a lovely breakfast in the m&s cafe we raided the shops and found a few treats for Christmas. In the evening me and Mum attended my Sisters friends charity event for children with Cancer at the 'Six Bells' in West Drayton. It isn't the nicest pub ever but the cause was great and the evening went really well, Chloe and Kirsty did an amazing job. Sunday as well as the hangover, me and Brian caught up on X factor and season 3 of the Walking Dead and that's about it, even though I was in Uni Monday and I have so much to do this week, I don't think I'll be in the rest of the week, got the doctors tomorrow so chin up Jess, chin up.

Mishaps

This weekend was an unfortunate one, on Friday I got up, packed my things, topped up my petrol tank and pumped my tyres all ready for a weekend away at Portsmouth for Jason's 21st. Unfortunately about an hour and a half before I had to leave, I got a phone call from Brian who had dragged himself from the shower to the bedroom in order to phone me as his back had popped and caused him to buckle. He couldn't walk, it was horrible, he point blank refused to go to the hospital for ages, insisting that we still go to Portsmouth, however a 2 hour car journey, a night out at Play zone and sleeping on a floor isn't exactly top of the list for curing back pain. So after literally screaming and dragging him out of bed I took him to A&E, turns out the muscle leading to the bottom of his spine and half way up his back had popped out...ouch. The Doctor gave him muscle relaxants and extremely strong painkillers and tomorrow after a long weekend of pain, he's going to the osteopath to get his muscle pushed back in.
So all in all it wasn't great, I stayed with Brian all weekend looking after him and tomorrow I'm going with him for his appointment. We both were gutted about missing Jason's birthday, but it will be made up for at some point with many drinks and I'm ridiculously glad everyone had a good time anyway.

A few randoms...

The birthday cake we made Jason.

 

Emma's get well message for Brian.

The result of Phoebe's assault on Dads sock...

My beautiful wall earring holder <3 font="font">

 

 

Tonight I went to my Zumba class, we decided to try out Monday instead of Wednesday as it's longer and I actually think I enjoyed it better, our teacher Brian is pretty immense. I'm enjoying it a lot, been doing it since September now and its made me realised how much I miss dancing so I'm looking into classes again :).
Back to Uni this week after reading week last week, I haven't done as much of my work as I'd hoped, I've got a lot to do. But on the upside, even though work hasn't been done, quite a bit of Xmas shopping has been, I don't have much left to do which is good :D.
Dad returned from America last Tuesday, so we popped round there for tea and to witness Phoebe cutting up one of Dads socks...standard. I always feel more at ease when Dads home, I hate him going away on his own.
This Saturday I'm taking my friend Chloe out for a drink fuelled evening, we haven't been out together yet and she's had a few down days recently so I look forward to cheering her up. Until next time toodles.

Boys and girls of every age, wouldn't you like to see something strange?

Busy isn't even the word for these past couple of weeks, people have returned from Uni therefore Electric Lounge was attended, I'd missed everyone terribly so this night out was definitely needed. Sarah's 21st surprise party went down really well, and despite the place being a bit manic, after a few drinks and many a drunken dance the night was actually really good and Sarah was surprised which was the main thing!

I got a bit of a cold the following week, i felt like crap for about 4 days which wasn't great seen as the amount of Uni work i had to do plus preparation for the Halloween party. On the Wednesday I drove, Brian, Jon and Joey up to High Wycombe where we watched the new Bond film which was really good, the rain was horrid to drive in though and once we had gotten out of the cinema we saw a boy dressed as a Zombie, roaming around the streets clearly pissed as a fart. The scariest part was, he didn't say a word, just kept wandering around the car park, I generally thought the apocalypse was here.

On Friday me and Brian had the day off so we spent the day cleaning the entire house, putting up the decorations and finishing the playlist for that evening. The party went really well, everyone made such a brilliant effort on the costume front and even though Brians house was jam packed with people, i had an amazing night. It ended quite abruptly when the sick started happening though, and boy was there a lot of sick! I put at least 4 of Brians mates into a cab, tucked up two of my friends in Brians bed and was up until 4am cleaning up cups and alcohol stains. I did get to speak to three of Brians closest friends about some things which I really needed, long story short, I love them, they love me, yayyy let's be happy with no more worries :).

In the morning, boy was the house a wreck! It was gross, i actually had to leave and go home, deciding that seen as i'd tidied before the party, everyone else should do this part :P.
The rest of the weekend was spent lazing about, eating, sleeping and watching the X Factor and the Cherenobyl Diaries, which was horrible. My sister was also dancing with The Wanted on Strictly Come Dancing on Sunday, so we all gathered at Dads house to watch her with pride, literally so proud of her.
On Monday, me, Mum, Becky and Brian all went to Brunel to watch the fireworks, they were beautiful and even though it was freezing i'm glad we went, we also bumped into Alex and Christos which meant the old Australia gang were back together for a brief moment :). We then departed home for some warm dinner and a night in front of the TV.

This weekend for the first time in a while I have nothing to do and to be honest I can't wait, my Dads gone on his yearly trip to America so i'll most likely go see my Phoebe's and Martina and then me and Brian are going to slob to our hearts content. Because quite frankly, in this freezing weather, I can't be asked to do much else <3 font="font">

Grown Ups...

Last week was tricky for me, Brian attended a funeral on Wednesday where his ex and several other of the wankers that surround her also attended. I wasn't happy if I'm being brutally honest, I understood the situation don't get me wrong, it generally was a tricky one as the thought of that woman being anywhere near my boyfriend made me feel a bit ill but of course he had to be there for his friend. Turns out she made a pleb of herself, pretty much everyone was fed up of her shit by the end of the day, which brings hope that people are finally seeing her true colours. Because that's the worse part after all, the fact that nobody can see through her absolute bull shit of an existence... Rant over :P.

Me and Brian looked after Dads house this weekend whilst they went away which was lovely. On Friday we went for dinner in Frankie and Bennys and then went to watch Looper which was absolutely incredible, I mean come on a film with Joseph Gordon- Levitt and Bruce Willis in was bound to be amazing. On Saturday we stayed up until 5am the next morning watching Prometheus and The Pact and eating sweets, the next day bought with it a lot of Borderlands 2 playing, starting the new series of the Walking Dead and of course the X factor.

There's so much to do at the moment, third year has literally got hold of me by the nipples and were only on the fourth week! With rehearsals constantly for my special project, lectures, essays and the rest, it's just brain achingly hard but hopefully as things start to come together it will ease up...hopefully.

A lot is coming up this week onwards, I've had my TB screening injection and then I go back on Thursday to get it checked over, this week is also the week where I get to visit my beautiful babies at Colham Manor which I am always excited about. I have also been asked to dress as a fairy this Christmas to entertain the children which I am really happy about as not only is it right up my street in terms of enjoyment but I will be getting experience for the future when I hopefully pursue this as a career.

Hopefully Miss French will return on Thursday evening for drinks which I'm looking forward to, it's about time people started to return from Uni to see us! On Saturday Matt has organised a surprise party up in London for my beautiful Sarah's 21st birthday which I cannot wait to attend. On Sunday I am meeting Brian's Nan and little Sister for the first time, these are both from his immediate family so I'm quite nervous about it but also really looking forward to it, I just hope they like me! With that and Brian's Halloween party coming up I am a bit overloaded with plans but I suppose that's a good thing. In regards to the party I am extremely excited now seeing the extent that the boys are going to, to make it amazing. Let's just say the decorations are going to be insaaane, I can't wait! Let's just hope nothing goes wrong and no one shags in mine and Brian's room otherwise the zombie Nurse will not be happy.